This is a 30 second advertising spot that was created to advertise the free alcohol treatment that the Health Behavior Research Center out of the Univeristy of Vermont is offering research participants in the Burlington, VT area.

I have three older brothers (the two in the middle being twins). The twins and I get along really well. They’re great brothers, and I know they’d never hurt me. I love how well we get alone and that we’re here for one another.

Our oldest brother is really different. He has always said the cruelest things to us (he goes for whatever hurts the most), and he’s always beat us up. To this day he says really awful things to us, but now he usually gives one or two hard punches and not as often (whereas he’d beat us everyday in the past, and I can remember multiple times where I couldn’t breathe from it and he’d just be there laughing). He’s in his mid-20s (living at home) and I don’t feel that it’s normal to hurt us. This is weird, but I can remember when we were younger and he’d disrespect the boundaries in regards to private parts. I’m not sure how to explain it. I can recall a couple of times my middle brothers yelling to get away and calling to my mom and then a jumble of words (it was never clear). My brother also walked in on me in the washroom when I was a child, and I can remember waking up to him and his friends in my room and him moving my pajama bottoms, but at the time I don’t remember caring (so, I’m confused). My brother definitely never meant any of these things sexually, but am I wrong to think they were weird things to do? I love my oldest brother very much, but I don’t trust him the way I do the twins.

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Tell me what u think and how would u help me make it better i am not finished

Everyone knows about Depression, Schizophrenia, Bipolar, and anxiety disorder, but does anyone know what Borderline Personality Disorder is about? It is one of the most common disorders in our society. Almost 10 million Americans or more may be affected by BPD. Out of the 10 million 75% are women. People all over the world suffer and some to this day, don’t know what they are suffering from. It is a relatively new disorder so it might be unknown to general population. Though the disorder was first defined in the 1930′s, it was only in the 1970′s that people began seeking therapy for the disorder. In the 1980′s BPD was included in the American Psychiatric Association Diagnostic manual, third edition, called the DSM-III, the diagnostic ‘bible” of the psychiatric profession. What is Borderline Personality Disorder, how can we recognize a person with Borderline Personality disorder and how can it be treated? There is a famous quote written by Thomas Sydenham, who was 1700s century English physician, ‘’ They love without measure those whom they will hate without reason.’’
Border line personality has few causes. It can be triggered, by severe environmental conditions, strict family back round and it can also be hereditary. Today’s society requires people to meet its expectations. If a family is strict in its upbringing the pressure becomes ten times harder. ‘’ Smart remarks at home were unthinkable. Authority reigned there. Control. Express an inappropriate emotion, expect a slap’’ (Rayland 10).A vulnerable personality might break under such pressure that is thrown at them resulting in a lot of different disorders. One of these disorders is Borderline Personality disorder. People with BDP suffer their whole life and they always say that world is very harsh and scary place.
It’s hard to live with Borderline Personality Disorder because it can trigger other maladies. BPD can have or has other disorders that can camouflage or contribute to the other disorder like depression, alcoholism or anorexia. ‘’ The bacon, which had been tucked tightly in my cheeks, flew directly into the toilet. The perfect solution. He thought he won’’ ( Kreisman 23). No one knows whether the personality disorder contributed or other disorders contributed to the personality disorder. It’s also stress that can contribute to the predisposition personality. It can be that under the stress borderline personality can turn to drugs, or develop an eating disorder, or even become severely depressed. It’s hard for people who have problems finding out that they have more problems in their life than they can handle.
One of the hardest tasks is defining BPD because its very similar to other disorders, but DSM- III- R lists eight symptoms that must be present for diagnosis. Those five symptoms include unstable relationships, impulsiveness in behavior, severe mood shifts, inappropriate displays of anger that are frequent, suicidal threats, lack of sense of identity , feeling of emptiness or boredom, and avoidance of abandonment.

If you don’t know, the DEA regulates substances by placing them into “schedules” based upon various attributes of a certain substance. Schedule I is the most restrictive Schedule and includes things like LSD and MDMA (ecstasy). Schedule I substances must:

-Have a high potential for abuse
-No currently accepted medical use for treatment in the United States
-Have a lack of accepted safety for use under medical supervision

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I have a special situation..where I had to leave a ex, for drug&alcohol abuse..I kept giving warnings till I parted..as I met this new person, who never allowed anyone close to her, allowed me to..I was very touched, but afterward she felt it would be safe if we were just friends so we wouldn’t hurt each other. She pushed me away..and crushed..my ex started to talk to me about it and I didn’t know what to do, she finished rehab and has been clean ever since and wants to be with me, crying for one more chance..by then the 2nd person, called me crying she was wrong, and she’ll let me be the first person in her heart after years of scars of abuse from her ex’s, she wanted me.. Now..
I can’t say I love them both, but I hold them both close to me..but its hard when they both have equal amount of ups&downs, both are unique in their own way, but either one I choose, lead to the other being heavily depressed, from going back to drugs&alcohol, to never allowing herself being close to anyone again.. I just..dont know what to do..and to make it worse. They used to be Best Friends (at the time I didn’t know since they’d talk on random occasions and I never noticed). I got screwed over on that one..

When I said that there is never enough time, it was taken the wrong way. It’s just that I love you and would like to spend more time with you, but sometimes I know that’s not possible. But I do feel that 1 day a week is something that no relationship can survive on. And it wasn’t either one of our faults for that. It’s almost impossible when I’m working 3rd shift. But that’s not something that’s set in stone. I am hoping that another day position comes available again.
Then on Fridays I was always drunk by the time you got home which made me not want to go home and chill, which is what I should’ve done in the first place. And I enjoy that more now than ever. But alcoholics are selfish people who only think of themselves and their fun. Then on Saturday I’d be suffering the hangover which made it hard for me to be a happy person because i was feeling miserable. Then back to the ritual work week on Sunday. So you can see where this didn’t leave much time, and that was NOT your fault. Billy I blame myself for that one. And now that i’m sober, I can clearly see what a fool I was and I’m truly sorry for putting you through that. I wouldn’t wish that on anyone. Alcoholism is very disturbing and I know I can never get you to fully understand it, but I do hope that you see me for the person I am now and not the person I was when I was sick. That person needs to be laid to rest because that was not me. I will never get through my sobriety if the past keeps getting brought up. And it’s been even harder when I’m dealing with emotions that I used to drowned out coupled by our separation. And yes there still may be a few lingering things that you didn’t deal with that I still may do. But Billy that’s where I need you to understand that I’m still trying to deal with this stuff and until I get the emotions under control, there are going to be repeated things. And I do still get my bouts of depression but it’s mostly because I’m miserable without you and not being able to share life with you. It’s also frustrating to not be given the chance to show the better changes. And you won’t enjoy them either if you don’t let go of the past. It just makes a person feel hopeless sometimes, ya know.
Billy, I wasn’t unhappy with you and getting more unhappy when you tried harder. You did everything right, but I was a sick alcoholic who wouldn’t have cared more no matter what you did. So please don’t beat yourself up for the effort. Now I can say thank you for being you because I never said that (and should have). That’s why I fell in love with you is because you treated me better than anyone ever has. And you should’ve been shown more appreciation for that. And I do appreciate everything that you’ve done.
Healthy relationships do have disagreements. And it’s not fair to tell someone how they should feel. It would’ve been better if our relationship came first before a few measly differences and misunderstandings. I know that things should’ve been expressed differently but they should’ve been dealt with too. It’s just not realistic to think that people are going to agree on everything. And it’s no reason for a relationship to end.
We had life plans. That’s where communication comes in. Things aren’t set in stone. If a discussion would’ve been brought on, we could’ve came to a reasonable decision that we both could live with. So I have to work, big deal. Nothing any different than I’m doin now. Nothing matters Billy as long as I’m with you and sharing life. I wish it wouldn’t have scared you to discuss these things with me. But I do realize and understand now that I was probably not the most negotiating person because alcoholics are the most selfish people. So once again, I can only apologize for making things hard on you. If I could take it all back, I would in a heartbeat. But unfortunately I can’t. There’s only moving forward.
All I want is open arms and an open heart to really show you the person I am. The person who was buried beneath the booze. The person that loves you more than anything.

I am six months sober, so I’ve cleaned my act up and am a better person now. He says he still loves me and when we hang out things are great. So I just need to back off a while to give him time to miss me?

The past year has been very difficult for us and the years to come only progress in difficulty as new challenges arise. Earlier last spring, my dear father was sentenced to five years incarcerated for fraudulent crimes. However, another challenge soon arose when my mother’s alcoholism worsened. She has always suffered from alcoholism and has always been intoxicated more than sober, but without my father here to help care for us, we were primarily left on our own.

His Symptoms:
My brother is constantly irritable and shows a lot of self-hate. He blames himself for things clearly not his fault. He has become increasingly angry and even punched a hole in his door after my mother’s last drunken action. He has also broken a range of objects through anger including a pair of glasses, a flower pot, several pencils, and he snapped his cell phone in half twice – it seems he breaks whatever he can get his hands on during his manic episodes. He is also constantly sad and never positive. He has trouble sleeping and never goes to bed before 4am, thus his school work has suffered. He is also always fatigued (which is probably a result of low sleep) and he is losing weight. He is a growing 16 year old boy, yet he is never hungry any more. He also has difficulty concentrating and a loss of interest in sports, which is used to pride himself in. He is also impatient and usually agitated.

has anyone ever stopped drinking after drinking 1 to 3 drinks a day? Did you experience any symptoms of withdrawal? For me, things are louder for some reason, anyone else experience this?

I am only trying to get closure out of this because I can’t get answers from anyone else in my family, besides my grandma (mom’s mother). When I was 4, I met my dad for the first time. According to my grandma, it wasn’t because he was deadbeat, but because my mom didn’t tell him she was pregnant with me when she was 25. My dad was only 23. My mom confirms this. My mom is spiteful, and lying and has been in and out of treatment for drug and alcohol abuse since I was born. She told me the reason she didn’t tell him is because his family is from India, and because my dad was a foreigner she didn’t want to deal with all the religious, culture BS…etc. So my dad found out about me when I was one year old through a mutual acquaintance who showed pictures of me to my dad from the day I was born until I met him. My dad tried and tried to get to see me, but she (my mom) wouldn’t let him out of spite. Then my mom’s mother took the bull by the horns and invited him over to meet me when I was 3. I remember the day, because I totally rejected him and shoved him away. I remember him kneeling beside me while I was playing and fingering my hair and saying to my grandma, “She has my hair.” I didn’t really get the significance of him being my dad. I just thought he looked strange, and that I didn’t have any love or feelings for him. I didn’t like his looks. When he tried to hug me, I shoved him away. I remember my words to him plainly, “I don’t want you to be my daddy and I hope you die.” I was too little for it to register in my brain what his reaction to these words were, nor did I even care.
Because he came a long way from another state to see me, he stayed the night with us (my grandma and me). That night I remember
distinctly the sound of him sobbing in the next room. I laid awake and lilistened to that for awhile. Then the next thing I heard, was the sound of someone walking down the hall to the bathroom. I could hear the sound of someone puking. I got up and went to see, and he was sitting there on the floor with his head hanging over the toilet. He had been crying, and throwing up. I didn’t say anything, but it only made me dislike him even more. The next morning, he was gone. Apparently, he left my grandma a note thanking her for being so gracious and letting him see me. A couple of days later we learned his car ran off the side of a cliff on the way back home, and that he was dead.
I didn’t care, or give it a second thought. I can’t say that I really care now, but I am wondering why I have no feelings about it even now? I mean, why can’t I at least feel bad about it, or sad? In a way I am kind of glad he’s dead because I remember the feeling I got when I saw him the first time. How strange and foreign he looked. It would be nice to know if he really did kill himself, and was it because of my rejection of him. The only reason I wonder is because I have heard them speculating that it may have been a suicide. I still dont have much of a relationship with my mom because of her chemical abuse.
Therefore I cannot get any solid answers from her. But if it is true, it would have been for very selfish reasons he would have done it.